I haven't blogged in a while, don't really have a good excuse for that! I guess I should be grateful that there have been no more maggot attacks to inspire me to write!
I have been very busy lately researching VBAC (vaginal birth after caesarean). I have this friend who is a total legend/BIATCH for lending me a book called "Delivery by Appointment". It opened my eyes to the c-section process and the pros, cons and risks involved. My first section was elective, I thought I had totally valid and major reasons that I have since found out were pretty weak. I trusted my OB would help me make an informed decision. Hmmm. It is totally my bad though, I should have researched harder!
I then watched a movie called "The business of being born" (again, thanks/feck you dear friend!!) which made me want not only a VBAC, but a home birth! Over my husbands dead body though... we'll see. At any rate I am determined to have a successful and drug free VBAC (I CAN do it!!) I want to be able to squat or birth on all fours. I want my baby on my chest where she belongs, STRAIGHT after birth. I want to breastfeed without being drug affected/hooked up to tubes and monitors/stuck on my back. I want to go home and be with Butterfly and the new baby, instead of a 5 night stay in hospital followed by 6 weeks of Mummy being sore and unable to function properly. I want to experience birth, not be a spectator in an operating theatre. I want their birthday to be a surprise, not chosen because my OB does C sections "on a wednesday". I want I want I WANT!
Yes, I am aware that vaginal birth isn't a walk in the park, and that I may end up with stitches etc to recover from. I am aware that there is a slight chance that I may need another c section anyway (and if so, I will not consider my labour to be a "waste"). I am informing myself fully this time, so that I can make an educated decision. I am finding out the truth behind some myths. YES there is a risk of uterine rupture. It is extremely low, most ruptures occurred after they used drugs to induce women attempting VBAC. The risks to mother and baby are higher during a c section. So I am not worried about rupture at all.
What I AM worried about is being labelled "high risk" at the hospital, and watched like a hawk. That if I don't progress fast enough they will cut me. That I have a higher risk of unnecessary intervention. Sigh. This is why some women choose HBAC (home birth after caesarean), to birth naturally outside of the hospital setting. Bloody tempting!! (The birthing centres have VBACs on an exclusion list. *Insert string of expletives*)
I still have a long way to go in regards to informing myself and developing a solid plan. Oh yeah, FYI I'm not pregnant, not even trying for that matter! Just super organised! I will have to make sure I don't get pregnant before Butterfly is 18 months old to increase my chances of VBAC success...